Tuesday, November 25, 2014

six

it’s either writing is so easy that even I can excel at it; or writing is so hard that I can’t even tell when I suck 

five

don’t let her 2pm fool you. Her 2am was a lost, sad soul. And lately her 2am was becoming her 2pm. 

four

Day by day the times don't seem to change. But as you look back on a year or a month you'll see so much time in your life has past. Who's to say that week wasn't the longest week. Who's to say that month didn't fly by. Time is an illusion fixated on measuring the moments we have on earth. As if measuring them could make them more or less invaluable. Use whatever moments you may have today so fully that they become memories for tomorrow, if a tomorrow is to be. If it's not to be, wouldn't it be nicer to end a series of moments as memories rather than a mere continuation of the unremarkable.

three

It's not anger or hurt or revenge that are dangerous. It's loneliness. Loneliness is the most dangerous state of mind. It is in loneliness that we are most vulnerable. In loneliness that we turn to alcohol and men we know aren't worth shit. It is in loneliness we find the grandest excuses for the decisions we make. Though we never admit to our loneliness, the proof is in our accords. We turn so far away from any progress we've made and succumb to the darkness we feel. We surround ourselves in the weakness, letting it overwhelm us because that is the easiest thing to do. Loneliness drives and is driven by all our other emotions. The beauty of this all though is that within our loneliness is where we are most likely to find peace. So perhaps instead of fearing the loneliness in our hearts and minds we should embrace and reorganize it.

two

your eyes, they blaze through me
looking down, smiling lazily
messy hair, tousled tastefully

eyes alive, crazed, they dance
weak, my knees don’t stand a chance
enticed by your slow romance

walk around the pool table
rest your finger at my navel
have to breathe; I’m hardly able

locking eyes as you progress
feathered kisses down my neck
shivering, I’m out of breath

hands, gentle, upon my face
leaves no time to contemplate
dizzy, the bar fades away

suddenly, I hear my name
look across as you say ‘hey’
smiling, I think disarrayed…


someday

one

It’s unapologetic
how the liquid courage
                of last night
                    feels like poison in my bones
this morning

The whirl of hope
and the brokenness of promises
                are unleashed in the daylight
                              and it hurts

any beautiful thoughts of you
are shattered by the realization
                of how damaging they were
                    of how damaging you were

you’re nothing you say you are
and you’re irresponsibly mean

so goodbye then
I’ll see you
when your eyes are dead


                and only the moon shines