Thursday, September 3, 2015

hundred & forty-three

She drove a little too fast; she loved a little too deep. She learned the hard way that only on the very brink of death do you feel the most alive. 

hundred & forty-two

My lips have become a catalyst for words you will never say. I recite affirmations softly to myself: you are beautiful, you are loved, you are enough. And just before sleep overcomes me, I almost believe them. 

hundred & forty-one

We are so quick to yell at the Lord; so quick to deny Him in His great plan for us. Sometimes God doesn’t change your circumstance. Sometimes God changes you, instead. 

hundred & forty

A note to the side chicks: there is no winning. It’ll drive you mad if you don’t have him, but you know the second you do, you won’t trust him. You’re competing, baby, but there is no competition. This isn’t about respecting yourself or fighting for what you want. This is about realizing you’re worth honesty. And with this, what you’re doing at 2am, there is no winning.

hundred & thirty-nine

Trust me, I’m just as sick of writing sad strings of words as you are reading them. I wonder, then, if when the hurt is gone, will I even be able to write? Perhaps only colorful words will slip from my tongue like a million rainbows with no hidden intentions.  

hundred & thirty-eight

Just know when she’s stopped playing games, it’s because she’s stopped caring who the winner is. And when that’s the case, man, you’ve lost her.

hundred & thirty-seven

I’m trying to rub clean the words engraved in my mind; consider my walls built and my heart incarcerated.